Well it could be....

Just got back from meeting with the lady about Linda. There is no official diagnosis yet (and probably won't be for a while). Some nice things did come out of the meeting though. Because Linda is considered a special needs child we'll be able to get some more support with her. Basically this specialist is saying that because of Linda's behaviors and because we don't have family support (all our relatives are not here in NZ) - as parents we need "time out". Now, as it is, Linda goes to kindy 4 mornings a week, which is great, believe me! But, this lady (for the life of me I can't remember her name, let's call her Carol), is saying that though that is great, we need time out from parenting maybe once a month or so, just for the husband and I to have some quality time together. And what's nice, that this will be paid for :) So, she's going to get the ball rolling on that.

Carol is highly suspecting that Linda may have Fetal Alcohol Syndrome. Now, before everyone gets in an uproar and says "Why did you drink while pregnant" - all four of our children are adopted. The biological mother is insisting that she did not drink during the pregnancy, but as Carol said (and yes, Carol has spoken with her), what she says can be taken with a grain of salt. Hell, she flat out lied about Linda's achievements as a baby! She was saying that Linda was crawling at 8 months. How in the world she was supposed to know this when Linda was uplifted at 6 months is beyond me! Anyway, Carol said that with Linda's behaviors and even her facial features, FAS is a strong possibility. I've read up on FAS and unluckily I have to agree. But, no matter WHAT it is, we won't give up. Linda will get the help she needs, as will we. Just do me a favor and say some prayers. Also, if anyone reads this and has a special needs child, I would love to hear from you.

Gah, I'm super depressed for some reason. Alex finished lunch and is now having his nap. Linda is due home from kindy soon. She eats lunch there so don't have to worry about her, but have to fix the husband's lunch. What I mainly want to do is crawl in bed and not leave. No can do though. Days like this are tough. Not sure what is causing it, could be the nightmares. Also, I need to stop trying to force myself to remember things. I think I AM trying to hard and it's making me go deeper in depression. Might bring that up next week to the therapist.

Gah, I hope this weather gets better!